Looking for my inner homemaker

I am a huge fan of blogs. I love reading, but do not have time to sit and read a book. I love doing, but have no time to do. So, I read....and research...and read to research. I can't figure out this homemaking thing to save my life!

I worked from the time I was 15 to...well, one month ago :0) I never in a million years imagined that I would be "just at home". And if I had imagined that when I was little, I certainly wouldn't have realized how much work there is to be done at home! Between one potty training little boy (who, thankfully, is about 95% potty trained now!) a nursing 8 month old who has lots of wet diapers, 3 cats and 3 dogs, I can't find the time to get this house organized! I started reading Organized Simplicity, and that itself overwhelmed me!

I am not a naturally organized person. I am a list person, but I would rather have someone make a list for me. I am naturally antsy. I can't sit still (um, adult ADHD?). I have to be doing something, but unfortunately, cleaning is not included in my need to do something.

I tend to round up my kids and diaper bag whenever I get antsy, and we go shopping. We don't always buy, just shop. It's nice to get out of the house. And away from the mess. Now, just to be clear, the house is tidy. It really is. But there is always clutter that needs to be gone through. Magazines that pile up because there are coupons in there that I need to clip. A kitchen floor that needs to be mopped twice a day. Laundry to be done. Dishes to be shoved into my cluttered cabinets.

Yesterday I went shopping (real shopping, for groceries) and had a lot of thinking time. Mostly because I wasn't organized and didn't have a list. or a phone. I was remembering some things I read on some blogs about certain foods, which got me thinking about cleaning supplies, which got me thinking about my to do list at home...

I realized then that the difference between me and the "organized moms" that I read about, is that they have a plan, and I do not. I need to start my day with a plan. When I worked, I always had a plan, or a goal for the day. I worked in Real Estate, so there was always someone who needed a phone call, some paperwork to do, cards to be sent out...at home, I feel like my job is to clean. And watch the kids. And clean. I'm sure there's more to it than that, and more meaning, I just haven't been able to narrow down my goals.

Once I get a plan, I think my inner homemaker will just show up!

What's the hardest part of being at home for you?